February 5, 2014
I was hoping I wasn't getting sick - seems like I am or else my allergies are so bad as to make me feel sick... Either way, the result is the same pretty miserable.
This might be my last entry in this journal since I wanted to leave a page or two intentionally blank so that years from now when I open it again and read it (yeah... riiiiight...) I can enjoy the translucency of the pages.
So many things I do that feel so silly.
Goodness - head feels like a balloon.
Really want to curl up and sleep.
Psalm 89
At first as I was reading I was thinking - a maskil? Really? But by the end of it it made sense - it is a lamentation.
I wonder at what point this Psalm is in David's life.
I want to think it's sometime after his betrayal with Bathesheba because that's the only time I can think of when he was brought so low.
The contrast is pretty significant - from Your covenant with David to where he (or Israel - it's hard to tell from the Psalm) end up in the Psalm:
"My steadfast love I will keep for him forever,
and my covenant will stand firm for him."
Technically you never broke Your promise to David - though it certainly looked like it to David and the writer of the Psalm...
"Lord, where is your steadfast love of old,
which by your faithfulness you swore to David?
Remember, O Lord, how your servants are mocked ,
and how I bear in my heart the insults of all the many nations,
with which your enemies mock, O Lord,
with which they mock the footsteps of your anointed."
...
"His offspring shall endure forever,
his throne as long as the sun before me.
Like the moon it shall be established forever,
a faithful witness in the sky."
Through Christ that promise was fulfilled... though they didn't see it at the time.
Amazing how a promise to one becomes prophecy for all...
...
I am fading in and out like a strobe light right now. This is a rich Psalm needing real breakdown and reading - but I just don't think I have it in me.
All I can do to barely stay awake.
I'm sorry Lord - may this day be wholly yours.
Amen.
